Last Class

Tonight is my last class. If all goes well tonight I'll graduate with a GPA I am truly satisfied with. I waited so long to go back to school. When I finally started classes and felt settled in, a few weeks later I found out I was pregnant with Ben. I continued on full-time throughout my pregnancy and care of a newborn. For so long it has been a constant juggle of keeping things balanced. Trying to put my all into my school work while keeping up with the Cronauer Crew. Truth be told, I am a little scared of what tonight will bring. Will there be a sense of relief that the journey for my bachelors is complete? Or a sense of sadness that this chapter of my life is closed? For some reason I've always been one that does better with a lot of balls in the air. I need a hectic schedule to keep me moving or else I really "slow down." People have asked me, "How do you do it all?" My reply is, TRUST ME I DON'T. My husband will readily tell you that our laundry pile looks like Mt. Cronauer. My big boys will honestly tell you there have been too many days of mom at her keyboard. (Far too little brownies and cookies after school). Natalie will tell you that there have been nights when she really wanted mom to stay home and snuggle with her. Baby Ben? What would he tell you? Well that's the good part. He hopefully won't remember a thing!

So what's next? Graduate school? Part time job? A break? The boys are finished school in a few short weeks; leaving us with long summer days of swim team and football, play dates and brotherly fights. I may just be screaming to have my two nights a week out of the house that school afforded me: regardless of what chaos occurred at home.

But who knows? Only God knows. For now I need to look around and be thankful. Thankful that we're still standing. Thankful that we have all that we need to be a family. Thank you that we are secure in the knowledge of God's love and that He has a plan and a purpose for each of our lives.